26 Pairs of Eyes




Valediction by Meg Carter

Drainpipe from the Foundling Hospital, eighteenth century © The Foundling Museum

Drainpipe from the Foundling Hospital, eighteenth century © The Foundling Museum

The story behind the story

On being presented with just two or three features on the outside of The Foundling Museum – a 1930s building, taken from the original Foundling Hospital established by Sir Thomas Coram near Lambs Conduit Street in 1745 I was, I must confess, a little under-whelmed.

As a writer I have long been drawn to this place – or, rather, the idea of it: the touchstone this museum provides to all the women and children whose lives it touched. And I felt this long before I, too, became a mother.

The obvious call is the wretchedness of those women forced by pitiless circumstance to part with their babies. The compassion of those who put themselves out to help them, too, at a time when many more simply looked away. And the tectonic plate-shift wrought by the separation of any mother and child, whatever the circumstance.

Far better to have been given a tangible and clearly-defined artefact from the inside of the building, then. Or so I thought.

Until, staring up at the museum’s red brick exterior as daylight turned one chill February afternoon, I found myself thinking … not of my son and how awful it would be to have to choose to part from him, but of my own mother fast-fading into grim the darkness of Alzheimers.

Rather than the mother’s loss, I was more attuned that day to that of the child.

And the more I thought about this, the more I thought about the idea of addressing the loss of a mother – not from the perspective of a tiny baby or the child they would become but an adult, along with the inevitable re- consideration of our own immortality that comes with the loss of a parent.

(In particular, when that loss occurs when the ‘child’ is an adult themselves.)

A rich vein, and one that is (still) tempting to explore … and yet too intricate, I decided, for the unique confines of a sestude – just 62 words. Because while this was to be my response to the artefacts I was assigned, this wasn’t – and, I knew, shouldn’t be – about me.

The aim of 26 Pairs of Eyes is it to provide a fresh perspective on the items within, around (and yes, on) the Foundling Museum. And to do anything other than focus on their origin and relevance and meaning felt like it would be a kind of betrayal of the women and children whose lives Sir Thomas Coram touched.

In search of inspiration I stood and stared, my eyes ranging back and forth across the museum’s austere façade until, time and again, they settled back on just one thing: the lead drainpipe with its lamb motif.

This, along with the two posts (in the shape of obelisks) with were either on the original hospital building or in a 1756 engraving of it, I’d been reliably informed.

(The sculpture of Coram above the door – by sculptor Thomas Evans – is contemporary with the existing building, so dates from 1937. And it is not known if the door surround is from the eighteenth century building, though it is “possible”.)

Was the lamb on the drainpipe a reference to lamb as metaphor for Jesus, “the Lamb of God”?

Or a nod to nearby Lambs Conduit Street. A street named, in turn, after William Lambe for the £1,500 he gave for the rebuilding of Holborn Conduit – an Elizabethan dam made in one of the tributaries of the river Fleet in 1564 and restored in 1577 by William Lamb?

But no-one seemed to know. And though it was published in 1789, well after the Hospital’s construction, the little lamb made me think of The Lamb by William Blake:

Little Lamb who made thee
Dost though know who made thee
Gave thee life & bid thee feed.
By the stream & o’er the mead;
Gave thee clothing of delight,
Softest clothing wooly bright;
Gave thee such a tender voice,
Making all the vales rejoice!
Little Lamb who made thee
Does though know who made thee

Little Lamb I’ll tell thee,
Little Lamb I’ll tell thee!
He is called by thy name,
For he calls himself a Lamb:
He is meek & he is mild,
He became a little child:
I a child & thou a lamb,
We are called by his name.
Little Lamb God bless thee.
Little Lamb God bless thee.

(The Lamb by William Blake)

I have always loved the childlike simplicity of this poem. So I played around with the rhythm, imagining a mother bringing her child to the hospital’s front door, preparing herself to say farewell for the very last time.

Being apart – or, in my mother’s case, unable to recognise or remember parts of her life, her family – cannot weaken true love, I thought. And as I considered this I remembered the pair of compasses in a John Donne poem.

A Valediction: Forbidding Mourning is a very different kind of poem (for a start, it’s about two lovers salted by, some suggest – and depending on how your read it – innuendo, but let’s not get into that). More important, though, is its idea of two people joined at one point yet at the same time wide apart – whether by choice, or otherwise. And this felt both apt and poignant. In particular, the latter stanzas:

Our two souls therefore, which are one,
Though I must go, endure not yet
A breach, but an expansion,
Like gold to airy thinness beat.

If they be two, they are two so
As stiff twin compasses are two;
Thy soul, the fixed foot, makes no show
To move, but doth, if the other do.

And though it in the centre sit,
Yet when the other far doth roam,
It leans and hearkens after it,
And grows erect, as that comes home.

Such wilt thou be to me, who must,
Like th’ other foot, obliquely run;
They firmness makes my circle just,
And makes me end where I begun.

(Taken from A Valediction: Forbidding Mourning by John Donne)

Poetry was another inspiration, then, and this – my sestude, Valediction – the end result. Now, as I re-read it again, it strikes me it can be just as easily read one way or the other: from the perspective of a mother to her child, or from a child to her mother. Or perhaps that’s just me.

Meg Carter

Valediction

Little lamb,
who’ll love thee
soothe, protect and guide thee
coddle and cosset, cherish thee
for howe’er so long?
But one hope can console me,
replenish and sustain me:
the life thou’ll lead without me
will be the better one.
My dearest lambkin,
pray, believe me
that ne’er will I forget thee,
replace or e’er regret thee.
For we are
forever
one.

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